Kage No Eremento

Reflections

2006-02-18T14:16:00.000+08:00

Not many come to this site anymore i guess? Matured a great deal recently. Many a times, the person whom u knew u could trust could be actually some1 who has an agenda towards you. Thanks alot, senior. I understood fully. Each man for his own i guess? Calling my guys bastard? Orphan? Well, U could try abit harder. They say, ignorance is fatal. Well, i beg to difer. At times, Ignorance truely is bliss. MJV, Never, never ever think that u r bigger than the system itself. Im part of the system. I preach the system. Trying to form ur small group? Good Luck.

Life is really a matter of choices. You can choose to be sad or happy. You can, choose how you wan to behave and also You can! choose the way you wan to accept things. Been thru quite a lot of stuff at this moments. Mixed emotions. Y are things the way it is now? Isit becos of lack of strength tt cause this weakness? or isit the inferiority of the party tt cos this despair?

Im gg to pull thru this tide with those who stand beside me all this while. Regret is what im gg to give to those who conjure images of their own without any concrete foundation. Read on. Mada Mada.

~Jaa. Star Elite, im blessed to have you as my NDO team. Press on. Let win it! Our Prophecy.

Blah Blah Blah

2006-01-16T14:47:00.000+08:00

A month and 2 days since ive touched this space. Feels like a decade. Ha. Seriously.
Arh well. Time hasnt been on my side recently. Felt like busier and busier and having lesser time to relax and do the things i enjoyed. Loving my dear ling~ with every passing day. Hmmm. Practically missing her and now and then. Shes at school now. Bz i guess. Days spend with her seems too fast. Arh ferk. Wish i could have more time.

Well. It seems like our cheesecake is doing not bad. Taste great. I tink can compare with cake shop ready. haha. hmmm. Im gg to tinker around with the cheese again soon. Mayb todae?

Although things have been tough on my side. Im glad tt we have cleared our 50BCs. :)
As well as Janson being the 9th Manager under D.A.D. Congrats! Congrats to Serene for hitting her 500CF share. Guys! The road may be tough, but dun gif up! As long as u believe and concieve, you can truly achieve!

~Jaa. Love u ling! Muacks.

its been some time

2005-12-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hoi Hoi~~ 11.35pm. Tommorrows my traffic police test. My heart is racing, my body's tired. Todae is darLing's bdae. Celebrated with her last ntie at the stroke of 12. 1st time i realli celebrated with any gals. Bet she is glad(not was). Haha. Hmmm. Shes having a family dinner at M'sia nw. Wtf. Having seafood and yet haf to cheek to msged me. "hi.. haa" hmmm. not young anymore my dear. Start to think. As i alwaaaays tell u, "your lucky to have mi" haha. And im jealous of u fer having such a gooood bf. rite? haha. Ar well. Dozing off soon i guess. 10.15am. Do or die. Pass or fail. Im going to give 1 jia lat jia lat 1. Wish all the best guys. Ill be needing it. ilu.

~Jaa. Love u darling. Muacks

2005-12-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

me and my dearie

2005-12-14T23:28:00.001+08:00

obvious isnt it?

2005-12-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

Pretty isnt it? bet shes going to screw me when she sees all these...

2005-12-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

hungry girl

2005-12-14T23:25:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... the birthday girl

2005-12-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

My li' sweetie

2005-12-14T23:23:00.001+08:00

2005-12-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

Ling's birthday cake

2005-11-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

Thanks fer everyting lao po...

19 days

2005-11-21T14:56:00.000+08:00

19 days since my last post. Couldnt bring myself to cont. blogging. Everyting seems to be moving too fast. too fast. Well. Pple tend to slow down up there in the head. Looks like upgrading is unavoidable. More and more stress with less and less answers. Guess what shi xiong said is right. Subconscious. Well. Sometimes i realli wonder. Do we really practice wad we preach?like wdever financial freedom... Well. Ask urself guys. those who will be reading this. Have u guys given hope for a better future. Given up hope for a better life? Have u lost ur belief that 1 day u will be standing at the top of the world. Doing things u enjoy doing without a care in the world? Driving ur fav car with the one u love? Have u given up ur beliefs and hope? Let me tell u. I have not. and we will not. Juz watched a movie named "Cinderella Man". Hmmm. Guess wad realli hit me hard was tt being poor is really scarey. really scarey. Poverty can really let u c the cruel side of life and the real 'u' in life. Are juz somebody who juz dress well or talk well juz to cover ur incompetency? I rmb wad christian told me b4, the true worth of a person is measure by wad he has left after everyting of him is gone. Well. Think again guys. Are u fighting to avoid poverty or fighting to become rich? Im gonna bounce back. Despite many ferk tings and pple around. Im goin to be the pillar of support. The Lighthouse when u need a light to be guided upon. Shining thru the darkness.

~Jaa. Sorry if i made u wait and wait. Im really busy, all these is for a better future fer both of us. Bread or love. I gif u both. i gif u both....

2nd Nov

2005-11-02T06:01:00.000+08:00

6am in the morning. Jus finished Dota-ing. Went out for a movie outing wif our International President. Woohoo. Kinda rare. 1st time. Wanted to go Parklane to dota but well, Some pple just tua-ed us. haha. Was rather slightly pissed. Well. not bout dota. but other stuff. Ah well, guess i was jus sensitive. Nvm nvm. Familiar? Nth, nvm, wadevr... Familiar... New Plan, New strats. Wad well bcom the end of me after this yr. Argh. I wonder. B4 my Ns... hmmm. Seems like everytings gg slightly out of tune.... Nvm, i'll get it back in tune. Till then...

~Jaa. Guess im just a fragment. Got to work harder i suppose??

...

2005-10-31T09:24:00.000+08:00

Haven been really updating it fer some time. Didnt have much time to do so. Late nites and earlie mornings are common events fer me daily. Eye bags have became my new accessory. ha. Well. Work Work and work again. Never felt so exhausted at this point of time. Glad that ur around although our times spent r minimal. 1st Nov marks a new change in NTI. New Plan, New Managing Director + Emall. How rockish can things get. From the past to now. Phew! Glad tt i stick to my belifs in the company. Every li' status and achievement comes from this company. 2yrs of my network marketing yrs haf past and many more will come! CHeers

~Jaa. I rather spending quality time wif u than quantity time.

What an evening/

2005-10-18T01:20:00.000+08:00

Ohayo Mina-Sans! Kinda free nw at the moment. Hands itchy. Okay. Hmmm. What an evening. Finally we went to Night Safari! haha. After 1 week? haha. Not bad not bad. Except for those funny indian tourists. haha. Keep on take flash fotos. damn irritating. haha. Until even the tour guide need to send an indian guide to stop them. haha. Though im sick and tired tt evening, its been so long since i enjoyed myself abit. Well. Wun elaborate on what happen. Waiting fer my Macdonalds.. Well.Enuff. NExt week would be a new week and everyting is gg smoothly...Guys! Gear up ur weapons! STart from this week. Lets stand up and build our empire!

~Jaa. Jaa. Miss ya.

3wks?

2005-10-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hoi~ Hoi~ Oyasumi nasai mina-san! 2-3 weeks since i typd something in this space. Never felt so grown up before. Never felt so old before. Well. normal 19yr olds wont believe if i tell them the things im doing nw is beyond what a normal 19 yr old would do. However, im really glad that im given the task to do so. Like what mr rick said to me. I guess my advancement is real quick. How long would it last? I hope forever? Imaging a 19 yr old playing the part of a 25yr old. Thinking like a 25 yr and having dreams like 1 too. Sometimes i asked myself. When will all my tiredness and stress end? I guess the only answer would be; never. Well. the only time when tiredness, fatigue and stress end would be the day when ur both legs are in the coffin. Well, lets enjoy our stressm tiredness and sacrifice. If u cant do what u like. Like what u do. Guess i'll just end here. Just wan to tell this special person that i really miss her. Corny? haha. I really do.

Jaa~

Guess wad..

2005-09-29T02:47:00.000+08:00

Guess wad.. thats it. thats it. Over and done. Been busying around real much this past week. Doing my role as a speaker team member. attending countless meetings and tabletalks as well as interviews. Oh my.. oh my.. Well. Thats it... thats it... A new goal in life i guess. International market! Arghz! Aiming for the impossible and make it possible! Well. Money's not everything to me. Well, MOST pple never understood what money is all about. Money is just some paper and metal invented by pple. Rmbed an upline once told me; " Money is just a key to unlock everything in the world" Well. The sad thing in life is that most pple chase after money without knowing what money is all about. Jus a carrot hanging in front of the donkey. Chase after the source that brings money rather than the money alone. Think again...

Niwaes, PSC's coming, feng shen bang's coming. Loading & loading up things in my head...

Thats it... thats it...

~Jaa. Oya-sumi-nasai !

Updated

2005-09-23T15:51:00.000+08:00

Alright, decided to change the skin after someone's prompt. Looks kinda like the old one. Guess what. This skin was made on the 23rd of June. haha. Decided to use it then.

BSB- Drowning

2005-09-20T11:57:00.001+08:00

Backstreet boys - Drowning
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Don't pretend you're sorry

I know you're not

You know you got the power

To make me weak inside

Girl you leave me breathless

But it's okay 'cause

You are my survival

Now hear me say

I can't imagine life

Without your love

Even forever don't seem

Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe

I take you in

And my heart beats again

Baby I can't help it

You keep me

Drowning in your love

Everytime I try to rise above

I'm swept away by love

Baby I can't help it

You keep me

Drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter

Maybe not

'Cause I have known the safety

Of floating freely

In your arms

I don't need another lifeline

It's not for me

'Cause only you can save me

Oh can't you see

I can't imagine life

Without your love

And even forever don't seem

Like long enough

Keeping it short

2005-09-20T09:23:00.000+08:00

~Hoi Hoi. Hectic week. NDOs, BIPs, BESs... Dun really have time for blog. Well, will be keeping it short for the next week unless there is urge to type something long.

Arh well. Realise all these well that i dont really follow what i preach. Mayb you guys hear before. But too bad, im gonna repeat. Making the Right Decision is more important than making the right effort. Many a times. We try to put in our best effort in, but we realise later on that tt it might be on the wrong focus. Well. We could always take a look and adjust our goals to check wether it tallies with what we really want.

Hugh responsibility weighing on my shoulders and mind. My partner's going in to ns. growing group. Felt that my level not high enuff to handle everyting. Luckily, christian they all around. Mr rick, edric my guys, and mr jackie. Really appreciative of what you all have done. Making me division head, speaker team. Thanks alot. Really been thinking thru some stuff quite deeply. Whats the end of me after everyting? Really hope to go itnernational wif Mr Des. I realy wish to... Fight hard guys. Impossible is nothing, impossible is potential.

~Jaa. So far, none really made me feel so traumatise in a short period. Regrets..regrets..

BSB-P.Gal

2005-09-15T20:18:00.000+08:00

BSB-Poster Girl

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Jodie was a long way from home

She can make alone look pretty

Her attitude made a part of her landscape

Riding her bike through alphabet city

She likes to party in the backseat

Under the bridge on the Brooklyn side

Smoking cigarettes in the afterglow

Taking bets 'till the sun won't rise

She said "what good is tomorrow without a guarantee?"

She can lick her lips and smile

And make you want to believe

Chorus:

That the consequences of your actions really are just a game

That your life is just a chain reaction taking you day by day

She says nothing's forever in this crazy world

Still I'm falling in love with the right now poster girl

Jodie likes to shoplift in stores

Right alongside the rich and famous

Get in elevators, press emergency stop

And make love on the floor until the camera made us

And no woman in the world

Ever made me feel like my heart's on fire

Where she walked I followed

When she laughed I cried"What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?"

And I was wrapped around her finger

And I began to believe

(Repeat chorus 2x)

La la la laLa la la laLa la la laaa(Repeat 1x)

Tell me what you want from me

I've got everything you need

It's getting hard for me to breathe

Let me be your guarantee

(Repeat chorus 2x)

Right now, right now

Right now, ohhh

Poster girl

Poster girl, yeah

Come on, come on

BSB- Just want you to know

2005-09-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

Backstreet boys - Just want you to know
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Looking at your picture from when we first met

You gave me a smile that I could never forget

And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind

The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night

Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I

've been fighting to let you go

Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end

I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me

But still I have to say I would do it all again

Just want you to know

All the doors are closing

I'm tryin' to move ahead

And deep inside

I wish it's me instead

My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know that

I've been fighting to let you go

Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end

I wish that

I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me

But still I have to say

I would do it all again

Just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself

No I can't fake it, there's no one else

I just want you to know

That I've been fighting to let you go

Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end

I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me

But still I have to say I would do it all again

Just want you to know

That I've been fighting to let you go

Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end

I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me

But still I have to say I would do it all again

Just want you to know

Long long week.

2005-09-12T13:08:00.000+08:00

Hesitating eh Mr Ang? Just a li' bit more. jus a li'bit more... Been thinking about wad Shi xiong have told me ytd. Am i simply jus a workaholic? or am i juz a lazy bum? Hmmm. Been pushing myself real hard these few days. No excuses to myself. Nv been stricter to myself. Always felt that theres more to do. Well. He ordered me to go recharge. lolz. Haiz. No choice. Went movie-ing with my small band of guys plus fidia. Watched The Longest Yard. Splendid movie. Strongly urged u guys to go watch tt show. Dignity, brotherhood and goals is some values this show u teaching. So go watch guys,u wun regret.

Played tennis this morning at Ngee Ann with my all-time kiddy buddy, Esmonde! haha. So long nv c u le. more and more cute le. Like a li' kiddo! Hmmm. not bad, my skills haven expire yet. But no more stamina within me already. Need some exercise to keep me going. I guess thats y i need. A short recharge. BESs, BIPs, NDOs, PSC.. Speaker Team. Woohoo. Lots of stuff rushing at me. Surrender? NEver! My bro and partner is gg to serve the country soon, leaving me to fight this war. Mada Mada Dane!!

Oh! Just found my ol' book. Lots of stuffs inside. Lots of stories, memories to share around. From 04'. When i saw tt book. Memories start to enter my already tired mind. Especially those names of those who used to teach me. Lao Da, chris, vic, jason and so go on...

Crucial Month! Make it or break it. Lets rise together for this occasion and stand united until the last day.

Lack of appreciation will cause deppreciation. And deppreciation wil cause lack of interest. Well! Drift away! Drift away!

~Jaa Drift away ba!

Long week

2005-09-06T10:44:00.000+08:00

Been really busy working on office stuffs and personal life. Car Fund Incentive is over. Some may win. Some might not. Congrats to Lian Jie, Linh, Ming Jie and Ming Hao for being our newest Business Executive Managers, You guys have done our group proud. Well, our group is curently one of the fastest group in producing new managers. Lets stay that way and tradition. All the way to the top. As for those who did not achieve what they wanted. Dont worry, you guys jus need a teeny weenie more. Your time will come soon guys. Push-On! Appts, meetings and groupings have been up my head the past few days. Realli shagged. My partner had someting cropped up so its up to mighty me to save the day.! haha.

Well, Well i guess im human after all. Decided to bake a cake for MM. Hmmm. not bad. Went quite. But the cake abit slant. haha. She wanted chocolate. But well. Gave her like chocolate plus butter cake. Yum~Yum~ Shld be tasty. Got experiment the day before. Woke up on Sun at 9am for this 'Project' ok. haha. Met her around 12plus to deliver the goods. Not bad. Still wearing the necklace i gave u.
Hey guys! Sorry if all these stuffs too personal. But too bad! haha. Bz around for the whole sunday like a bee. More appts. Lucky my fellow managers were around. Love u guys man!

Hmmm. Monday was family day for me. Got someting to do. Bz around for 1st half of the day. Finding points. Making phone calls. Tired. Took MM out for dinner around evening time. Late again! Normal Normal. If ur not late, then its abnormal. Brought her a tub of cookie my mummy made. Needless to ask. Taste wonderful again rite? haha. Super Confident will be nice! Went to BK to eat before gg to Giant to buy some stuff. Rmb the yogurt incident my dear? haha. Juz a spoon only wad!!! Oh ya also. Rmb the group of Insurance Agents doin the duno wad Tuo Diao performance. haha. So funny. Didnt noe adults also got their cute side in life. Lolz. Somemore when we were leaving, 1 of them still wan to ask us to buy Insurance policy. Well, i wanted to ask him back. "So would u like to open a Gold Merchant Account?" Lolx. Sent her home. Dilli Dallied awhile. U ar.. So stubborn! Went to edric's hse for mahjong. haha. After few hours. Me and chris won like 50 to 60 plus i tink? haha. 1st time.

~Jaa Jaa. The cakes at Popular will be made in progress. haha. later u fat i duno ar.

2005-09-02T15:49:00.000+08:00

Sanctuary!

2005-09-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

Me and fida. Hungry pigs.!

2005-09-02T15:42:00.001+08:00

Simply me!

2005-09-02T15:42:00.000+08:00

Formal?

Enuff.

2005-09-02T10:03:00.000+08:00

Tiredness is all i feel. A good rest is all i need. Though im lethargic and tired and down. Never have i once forget my goal in mine. Breath a sigh of relief. Finally Linh is up. Congrats for being the 1st foreign manager under the Mr Desmond. Jumped 2 positions up somemore. Keep up the good work. Still remember those nites and days u were fighting? Still Rmb wad i told u those nites? BEM is just a beginning. Dont stop. The road is starting to become more and more difficult as well as enriching. Stay focus and prepare on a roller coaster ride. Life will slowly become more and more different as well as interesting.

Last nite has been a mentally nitemare for me. Decided to forsake some stuffs. Didnt whether i would regret this step. However i noe, if i dun take this step, i would regret more in future. Indeed...Indeed, I found out tt we haf diff frequencies. Mayb my character is just too diff. Trying hard to adjust but well. Sometimes, it really takes 2 hands to clap. Dun feel inferior anymore. Be strong, maintain ur childlike behaviour cos tt is what u r all about. My fone's readily available for u. But rite now, all i realli want is to reach for the skies together with my guys. Though how much my heart is for u. I've finally come to a realisation point. Sometimes, i realli forgot the word tired and the word stress, i only noe that if im not prepared to be tired and stress, my guys will suffer more unless me myself set the right example.

3rd time i felt so down. Seldom in my life so many tings have came to me. My guys, Lao da, u. Kinda emotional. Well. Same phrase to myself. Stay focus, be to true to urself and reach for the unknown.

~Jaa. Edwin, charlene, xiang kai, janson... hasten up..

BSB fever

2005-08-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm. To add on abit. Has caught abit of Backstreet boys fever. haha. Kinda addicted to their songs. Kinda irritating rite dearie. Every nite hear the same 2 songs. haha. But those 2 songfs r how i feel la. Anyway, Didnt noe Zen like BSB too. haha. Got a kaki lo. haha. Jaa Jaa.

I want it that way

2005-08-29T16:09:00.000+08:00

BSB - I Want It That Way
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You are my fire

The one desire

Believe when I say

I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart

Can't reach to your heart

When you say

That I want it that way

[Chorus:]

Tell me why

Ain't nothin' but a heartache

Tell me why

Ain't nothin' but a mistake

Tell me why

I never wanna hear you say

I want it that way

Am I your fire

Your one desire

Yes I know it's too late

But I want it that way

[Chorus]

Now I can see that we're falling apart

From the way that it used to be, yeah

No matter the distance

I want you to know

That deep down inside of me...

You are my fire

The one desire

You are

You are, you are, you are

Don't wanna hear you say

Ain't nothin' but a heartache

Ain't nothin' but a mistake(Don't wanna hear you say)

I never wanna hear you say

I want it that way

Tell me why

Ain't nothin' but a heartache

Tell me why

I never wanna hear you say

(Don't wanna hear you say it)

I want it that way

I want it that way

As Long as u love me

2005-08-29T16:02:00.000+08:00

BSB - As Long As You Love Me
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Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine

Im leaving my life in your hands

People say Im crazy and that I am blind

Risking it all in a glance

How you got me blind is still a mystery

I can´t get you out of my head

Don´t care what is written in your history

As long as you´re here with me

Chorus:

I don´t care

who you are

Where you´re from

What you did

As long as you love me

Who you are

Where you´re from

Don´t care what you did

As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done

Feels like it´s deep within me

Doesn´t really matter if you´re on the run

It seems like we´re meant to be

Chorus Bridge:

I´ve tried to hide it so that no one knows

But I guess it shows

When you look into my eyes

What you did and where you´re comin´ from

I don´t care, as long as you love me, baby.

Chorus

What a day

2005-08-29T15:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm. Shld go abit naggy todae. haha. Unlike me. Hmm Started ytd rather shaggily. Slpt at 4am. Someone la. keep on ask me go c boar. haha. C so long. Kaoz. So in the end, slpt at 4. Woke up at 9am to catch up with my Sec Sch frens for soccer. Fish them! Say 9am play. Came at 10am. Well Well. Tts so normal them. Rushed home on Chris's bike. Thanks ar bro! Reached home around 11am plus. Relax abit. Called someone up. Damn. Sleepy head. Blur Cock. Went out at around 12.25 to go meet pple. Went to Raffles Shopping Centre to buy cufflings. Thanks ar sweetie for accompanying me. Not bad not bad, got some taste. haha. But u complain so much. Say i take too long. Next went to office to attend our Sanctuary Group's Feng Shen Bang. Wun elaborate so much. Cause whats the use of saying so much bout it when not much of my pple go up the stage. Nvm bout tt. The next F.S.B shld be at 2/10/05, Ask yourself guys. Would u still be down the stage watching pple go up or would u be the one on top? though kinda disappointed tt not much of our guys went up but well, the next time round would be diff...very diff... Well. Will end here. Fight hard guys. The battle is not over!!!!! One week left. Lets fight on like theres tommorrow and claim what is rightfully ours!

~Jaa.. Tiring day but with mixed emotions. Glad to c u at the beginning of the day.

2005-08-29T15:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm. Juz for u.

2005-08-29T15:43:00.001+08:00

Some1 ar.. sneak foto of me in cab... lol

2005-08-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

Chosen by some1 of good taste.....

2005-08-29T15:42:00.000+08:00

someting new... new cufflings!

Disapponted

2005-08-27T10:52:00.000+08:00

Disappointment is all i want to say. Do whatever you want then. Enjoy urself.

~Jaa. Juz do it your way.

Mada Mada Ikezou!

2005-08-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

Days have past, weeks have past. tml seems so near and ytd seems far. The leaves from the trees have dropped and tears have dried. People come, people leave. The winds might blow and tides might have turned. Our Dreams might be far away from us but never away from our minds and hearts. One objective within all of us. To make it big this year. Though the road to freedom is long, tough, cruel. We must still walk on. No matter how sick or fatigue all over me. This road is a road whereby i need to walk on. Not just for me, but my loved ones too. My downlines, those who believe in me. Qian Shan Wo Du Xing, Jin Sheng Bu Hou Hui... Guys.. i mayb not be realli around recently. Bad health with lack of sleep. But believe me. I'll be back. Though i noe time and tide waits for no men. I remember a song whereby the chorus goes like this.. "Life is a road i wanna keep going...". How true this phrase is. Be it be good or bad. We need to strive on harder, and harder wif each passing day. Keep it guys, the battle is still very alive. Men only live once. I rather die fighting for something than to live for nothing.

~Jaa. All out and lets bring the honour back to our side!!!! Ikezou!

Critics

2005-08-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

This blog update is to all managers under Mr Rick.

A phrase to you guys.

" The ferked up problem with most people nowadays is that they forgot all the little things that made them great"

Ask yourself, have you forgot all the enthusiam that you guys had when we 1st got together to bring up this network?

Ask yourself? Are you still dependable? Are you concencious enough? Or are you doing things just because you are required to do? or do you wan to do it because its your responsibility? Status and rank is what you wear, respect is what you earn.

Ask yourself, are you up for the job? And instead of giving li'li excuses to cover yourself. Time is running. running after us. Or we chasing after time. Time waits for no man. Question your dependability.

Be true to yourself. Stay focus.

If not, every of our hardwork will be put into waste. Life is not a destination, it is a journey. If you think you are already at the top.

Think again.

We've got guys below us. Every of our guys appts are their hopes and dreams. If you are only interested in doing ur own stuff. Take down tt coat of urs and wake up.

And this message is not just a reminder to u all, it is a reminder to myself.

Cos i feel it is so ferked up that everybody is only concern about himself.

Every sacrifice comes a reward. The same ting goes for excuses, it comes with a judgement. And i tell u, it will be a harsh 1.

Remember once again. We are what we are todae because of not just only our efforts. But together with our guys efforts.

Just please. please, bloody wake up ur idea before everyting goes wrong and u regret.

Measure of a man

2005-08-22T14:35:00.000+08:00

Measure Of A Man - Clay Aiken
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Oooooo

Ooooooo

If one day you discover him

Broken down

He's lost everything

No cars, no fancy clothes

To make him who he's not

The woman at his side

Is all that he has got

Why do you ask him

Move heaven and earth

To prove his love has worth?

Would he walk on water?

Would he run through fire?

Would he stand before you

When it's down to the wire?

Would he give his life up

To be all he can?

Is that

Is that

Is that

How you measure a man?

If by chance all he had to give you

Was three words wrapped around your finger

Would that be deep enough

At the end of every day?

And how will you ever know

If the man is what he says?

Why do you ask him

Move heaven and earth

To prove he his love has worth?

Would he walk on water?

Would he run through fire?

Would he stand before you

When it's down to the wire?

Would he give his life up

To be all he can?

Is that

Is that

Is that

How you measure a man?

He never gives up

Let's go of his dreams

His world goes around

For his one true belief

Is that how you know?

Is that what it means?

Hey

Would he walk on water?

Would he run through fire?

Would he stand before you?

Will he be your anchor

When the dark unfolds?

Will he always love you

The best that he knows?

Would he give his life up

To be all he can?

Is that

Is that

Is that

How you measure a man?

Would he walk on water?

Would he run through fire?

Would he stand before you

When it's down to the wire?

Would he give his life up

To be all he can?

Is that

Is that

Is that

How you measure oh-woh

Is that

Is that

Is that

How you measure a man?

well. well. yawns. yawns.

2005-08-15T14:38:00.000+08:00

hmmm. haven been blogging for the past few days. Been blown off by a special person for the past few days. Wooo. Gal. u simply blow me off my seat. Well. Had a wonderful evening with a wonderful lady few days back. Memorable and unforgetable evening. Anyways. That was just me trying to share my happiness around. haha. Back to what i intended to say. Feng Shen Bang is just around the corner. Tensions are peaking up. Will u be the one to be up on the stage, will you be the one to dazzle everyone, will you be the one to be regconised by all? Will you be the one? Or will you be the one to be dazzled? be the one down the stage watching people being regconised? or the vice-versa? ask yourself do you wan better? do you just wan to be simple, normal? or do you wan to life extra-ordinarily? to be blown off by special things you do?
I repeat my fav quote again. Life Is Not About The Number Of Breaths You Take, But The Number Of People, Things And Moments That Takes Your Breaths Away.

Men only live once in their life. Men cry over unhappy things and happy things. Well, Thats part and parcel of life. Move on. Well... i rather i cry over happy things than sad things.

Rmb my video guys.?

Let others cry over small hurts...

but not you...

Thats all for todae i guess.... Cheer up guys. The route the success is difficult but worth it!

~Jaa. Thanks for everything that evening, my dear.

Greater future!

2005-08-08T02:42:00.000+08:00

Well. Life's has never been this great recently! Well. Seems like everything and everyone is on the ball. Shi Xiong's back, i suppose its been more than a year since i've seen him so enthu. and its a good sign. Went out wif jiejie on sat while the NDO members were playing game. Saw many exotic dresses and stuff. hmmm. some even cost a few hundred. well... creativity has no price tag i suppose. Wasnt very hungry though jiejie kept asking me to eat. Went into some candy shop to get some sweets. Saw a Graffiti Shop selling food. Hmmm. well. someting attracted me there. the Wanton mee! haha. and the rest was history. haha. Wonderful food and evening that day. Extremly tired arh! Well. Come on guys! Lets sharpen our knives and prepare for war. Only a couple of weeks left before FENG SHEN BANG!

~Jaa. Lets keep things up and you.. away please. away. shoo

2005-08-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

The Only time you fail is when you give up trying. All you need is to succeed at the final attempt.

Time fades

2005-08-04T12:31:00.000+08:00

Time seems to fade away rather fast recently... Well, jie has been enlightening me recently. lolz. Hey! Im usually the enlightener ok! Well, keeps on telling me to move on. Whats will be yours. Why bother to hold on.? Well, seems like its a 1 man show. I'll just move on. Memories of her seems to have faded off quite abit. anyways. Im bACK guys! The closer-nator is back. Abuse me pls!! MAMs, Closings.. juz abuse me. Well. Well. Well.. Jie Jie ar! Jie tuo bah! haha. Hope i wun fall into the gimmick trap liao.

Lastly, a pic for u guys...

~Jaa. Fidia Lim Jia Xuan !! U r so troublsome ar!!!! Ur marker and stuffs! hahaha.

2005-08-04T12:18:00.001+08:00

Me and li' Cousin.

2005-08-04T12:18:00.000+08:00

Her again ! Little Sweetie Pie

2005-08-04T12:17:00.000+08:00

My smallest female cousin. Aint she sweet?

Counting my sheeps

2005-08-02T03:29:00.000+08:00

10%,20%,30%,40%,50%,70%,80% and counting... Jie ar, only u noe wad i meant. Yawns Yawns. Lots of Li' Tingys have been pacing up and down in my head. . Is it tt wadever i am doing is wrong? Or is it right? Life have been pretty hot in my heels. One moment all was fine, the other moment, everytings wrong. Or was it u? or was it me? Life's pretty short. I know i have been emphasizing on this phrase. But seriously, how long can we stay in this blue planet? 60yrs? 80yrs? Nobody noes. One ting for sure, im goin to make it a bombastic 1. Crude? Yawns. Guess i'll do the OUT matter. Kinda disappointing to my heads. very disappointing. but sorry boss... i apologise sincerely. Well, mum and a couple of relatives have been telling me that one's life is predestined. Well. Lets c. lets c. Gotta make my mark somewhr.. somewhr. Sometimes, its good to interact wif ur upper relatives. could realli learn alot from them. At least i did. oh! ya. Talking bout relatives, Didnt noe i actually had a close cousin in office. haha. Mr jackie tt side 1. haha. Wierd. DIdnt c her b4. as in outside office. well. juz like jie. also have a cousin in office. haha. Well. Lets keep things the way it shld be la. At least 'U' walked a step closer. abit? big 1? well. who cares. Im living the life i like now. Wif u is juz bonus? i guess? haha. Or mayb im the bonus?

~Jaa. Yawns. after her.

In Grief....

2005-07-29T17:19:00.000+08:00

Today's Forecast
-------------------
After days of worrying more about others than about yourself, it's time to let them take care of it themselves. Would you be surprised to find that once you backed away, they felt guilty enough to actually solve it?

Life's short, grand dad's gone... the granddad whom i nv really came to love is gone...after months of struggling... the grand dad whom i nv really cherish.... hope you will go to somewhere much better... no sufferings...more happiness... dont worry bout tings here...

~Jaa... In grief....Life's short..

2005-07-29T02:33:00.000+08:00

Group Foto!

2005-07-29T02:32:00.001+08:00

Managers at Genting

2005-07-29T02:32:00.000+08:00

Genting!

2005-07-29T02:30:00.001+08:00

Me and Edric! Partners forever!

2005-07-29T02:30:00.000+08:00

not so dark...

2005-07-29T02:29:00.000+08:00

Me and jiejie!

Recollections

2005-07-28T14:15:00.000+08:00

Its been a few days since the trip ended. Arh. Dun worry. I wun be doing a "Fidia". haha. I wun be like" WOah! We slpt at this time. Woah. We did this ting at this time!" haha. Had some nice moments there la. Realli enjoyed myself. Fun times are juz too short. Jus like life. So make sure your life is full of laughter and fun. Last yr's trip wasnt too good for our group. Only 4 went. Me, edric, christian and He Who Shall Not Be Named. haha. Well. the 1 ting im glad bout this time is that around 10 of my guys went. Real glad. Hope they enjoyed their time at the high lands. Well. Arha! time for some " Fidia". haha. Hmmm. the weather was real cold. very very cold. haha. Like what she said also. Dun tink we slpt more than 12 hours in 4 days. haha. Well. Spend some time alone. Made a number of calls back to Sg. Duno what prompt me to do tt. Well. Thats the way life works. Doing tings that u duno y u do. Juz felt reali reali glad to hear her voice. Didnt noe whether she appreciates anot. Well. bought some li' tings for tt li' gal. hmmm. Tinks she like it? i guess so.? Well, ive done my part. its ur turn.

Gambled in Casino also. Won some. Lost more. Well well. No free lunch in the whole world i guess. Had some quality time down there. More bondings with our guys and other network's guys. Did some stuff there that i did not dare to do b4. Rollercoaster. haha. 1st time played, and its wif jie. haha. well. well. Realli got to thank her for those days in Genting. Consulted her for stuffs quite often. haha. Bought her a box of chocolates to show my appreciation. haha. Guessed she likes it. Thanks ar jie. Love you. Well. Kinda knocked out these days. Real tired. However, the war has jus began. C you and her on the top. Hope everyting turns out fine. real fine......

~Jaa.

Life is not about the number of breaths that you take, but the number of events that takes your breath away. I've had mine up the hills. Its now ur turn, guys. Lets c each other up the top these coming months. Cheers

Colors

2005-07-22T14:15:00.000+08:00

Hoi, Hoi, Did someting spetecular this morning(2am-4am), went to edwin's place to dye hair, guess wad. haha. Bleach+ i tink is beigh brown. Lolz. wooo. Nice color. haha. Coolness. Sweet. Diff me. haha Packing up now. Rdy for Genting trip. Yea. Staying overnite in company todae. Going for a manager's grouping later at nite. Been rather tired recently. She msged me last nite! Wah! wah! how sweet. I tink im goin to miss her these few days. haha. ok la. Will be updating stuffs again. Cya. 3 Rs of Success= Reward, Recharge, Recognition.

~Jaa. Will be enjoying myself. Dun miss me too much. Mada!

Countdown to Genting..yet so distant from it..

2005-07-20T02:27:00.000+08:00

Genting Countdown-4 days.

Everyone's realli in the mood for someting big now. Genting Trip is approaching nearer and nearer. But somehow, i feel quite distant away from it. Maybe felt something amiss? Or izzit becos not much of my guys are going. Well, nvm. everyone will be on stage at the end of this year. Everyone. Jie just injured her leg. Kinda poor thing. hurt her knee and sprain her right foot. Sayang sayang. Jie ar! Y so bu xiao xin ar. Somemore need to limp to office. So poor thing. Didi will work hard so next time can drive u to office. Steady 1. haha. Saw her again ytd. More and more lovely with each passing day. Haha. Sweet i suppose. But well, characters difer, the same for mentality and attititude. Well, well, well. Kinda normal lah. The best thing in life is that you dun always get what you want. Thats y life is so interesting. Things that are easily obtained are nothing. Only the things that are hard to get are something worth to get. u? I suppose. I suppose...

Let others lead small lives, but not you.
Let others argue over small things, but not you.
Let others cry over small hurts, but not you.
Let others leave their future in someone else's hands, but not you

"It is not only fine feathers that make fine birds."

Sometimes ar.. i really love the phrase above. It is really true that it is not what you wear and what you look like that determine how good you are. It is something more than that. Like as in inner self, mentality, attitude. In life, pple tend to look at your more successful side, but well, more than often, what you do behind the scene is more impt than what you do in front of the scene. The tears, hardwork, haggardness. To all my guys down there, never let your efforts, tears, hardwork be wasted. Keep on going, going, going. It is just a test set by those above to see who is more valuable to be entitle Success. Rmb guys. If you think of failure, you will fail. Smile guys, no matter how tough it might be.

You never noe, you might be just beside success,all you need is just abit more, just abit more.....

~Jaa(nothin but her, Genting, BRM, my guys... I smile is because you guys smile, i fight is because you guys fight...)

Darn

2005-07-19T12:36:00.000+08:00

Clutch in! Gear 1, Half Clutch, Biting point, Accelerate... Engine stall... Damn. Been taking driving lessons for few 2 weeks. But darn! Everytime mistake at the Gear 1 part. The rest of the gear are quite smooth for me. But.... gear 1........Grrrr.Nvm. Practice makes perfect. I'll get it real soon. Kinda regret. Shld have took auto. haha. Nvm also. My partner found out who is she lo. Haha. Woah. No wonder is my partner. Great minds tink alike. Well, kinda stunned when he guess it rite. Well. Hush brother. Hush. haha. Hmmm.. older gals now? hahaha. Great mind tinks alike.

You are what you are now because of your past. Think about it. If you had taken the time to get this part of your life handled when you were younger, where would you be now? Would you be living the way that you wanted? Would you remain still the same? Or even better? Thats how life works. Every drop of water makes an ocean; every million dollars consists of many dollars, the same goes for life. Whatever thing or things that you want to have in future is determine by what you do now. You reap wad you sow. If you plant and fertilize your seed in a wrong manner. Congrats. You will get a lousy fruit. But if you work the other way. Hmmm. You will get a good harvest.

Congrats to all who have achieve the Genting Incentive! See you guys on the cloudy soothing hills of Genting! To those who did not hit it, do not worry. We shall see you at the top too. It will not be genting, but somewhr higher than that. Our 2nd regconition nite'05! Keep it up guys! and we shall each other at the end of the ladder of success at the top!

~Jaa. Driving's is cool. (if u noe how to...) haha

Seizures.

2005-07-18T11:04:00.000+08:00

Heck. I tio chest pains. Wth.? Seems like my lungs area are in pain whenever i move my upper part. Well Well..Heck with the pain. Lets live like theres no tommorrow. Okay. Overslpt, wanted to watch Davies Cup at 5am. Ferk man. France vs Russia? I tink so. So lonig nv watch tennis liao. Kinda excited whenever i tink of it. Will be having a tennis session wif Chris and Tychicus later at SP. Duno whether still can go anot. Damn pain. Feeling much better emotionally the last few days. Faces of her still amaazes me. arha! lolz. Anyways, had a chat wif my li' sis last nite, shes going Genting with her family. were kinda happy when i heard that, tot we could meet up there and have some chats. Long time nv chat wif her liao. Tot we could go overseas the 2nd time but well... im 1 week b4 hers.... Saded. haha. Well. Anyway, Story again! haha I love telling stories. haha. I would name it as the Ice Cream & Umbrella Auntie.

I used to have an Auntie friend, one day, as you know, aunties are quite big mouths, haha, she told me that she had a friend, whose daughters were married to an umbrella man and an icecream man. She was sad because she was afraid that when the weather is hot, the daughter whose husband sells umbrella would not have much business, and when the weather is raining, the daughter whose husband sells ice cream would not have business. Lolz. Well, she was quite sad as she did not know what to do. Well, my that auntie told her this, " Aiya, Why must you think like that? Why not think the other way, when the weather is hot, the daughter who sells ice cream would have business, and when the weather is raining, the daughter who sells umbrella would have business?"

Similarly in life, many a times, when something happen, we can either choose to be look at it in a positive way or negative way. If we choose to look it positively, it will be positve. If you look it in a negative way, it definitely will be negative! Every thing that occurs has 2 sides to it. Its up to us as to how we want to view it. Your mind is sacred enclosure whereby nothing harmful or beneficial can enter it except by your own promotion or prompt.

~Jaa. Lets start to walk the road ahead with our heads high. The key to happiness is by treat everything with a postive mindset.

Hoi! Hoi!

2005-07-17T02:22:00.000+08:00

Hoi! Hoi! Sickish now as im typing. Doin our meeting's stuff. 1st day of ndo has just been over. Hmmm. Looks good and SOUNDs good. haha, well, im the Head of Multimedia Proceedings. Wooo. Sounds cool huh. haha. Not too bad. Glad tt shes happy. Well Well. Nvm. Duh.

If have the abilty to face a wall, that means you have the potential to climb over it.

~Jaa. Off to work!

2005-07-15T11:55:00.000+08:00

Been thinking alot ytd. Alot. Wad jie say is true la. Keep myself bz and not to think of --- too much. Really la. Thnx la jie. ur the cutest and prettiest jie ive every had. and ur stay being the only one! Muacks and kisses! Well, lets move on. lets move. " Life is like a box of chocolate, you never noe what u gonna get." haha. Cliche. Well, sometimes ar, most of the cliches tt we tink are cliches are realli true. Shockingly, lian jie felt the same way as i do as i was writing my blog last nite. Seriously, i was realli weeping off quite sad ytd. Well, im ok nw. lets move on. its NDO time! and im the official Music AV team! yeah! 1st time! shld be quite fun! Hey guys of 10th NDO! Im the AV team! Remember ar! Most of the songs will be "broadcast" by me! It will be a smashing NDO. since got me! lolz.

Song of the day: Bu Yao Guai Lao Tian Bu Gong Ping ( Jack Neo and team)

~Jaa, rolex will ours again.! Keeping it short this time.

Countless thoughts

2005-07-13T02:16:00.000+08:00

Tears roll, sadness stays... Fatigue becomes a part of me. Can't really focus recently. Just felt emotional recently, very unlike me. Kinda miss Lao Da and his teachings. Well, he left to china for the better good of everybody. Sometimes felt a void of loneliness. A gap. Missed the times where everyone was here. jason, chris, vic, guorong, and everyone else last yr and the yr before. Where are you guys?? Have you guys forgotton what we want? Forgot your dreams? Your aspirations? You might have, but we have not. We realli have not. all the promises you guys have made to us? Have you all forgotton? Only left me and edric to fend for ourselves.............?
Just wish that all of you guys are around. Lao Da is around also. Really really missed those days when i was still a new agent..So much fun, laughter... Gone were those days... leaving only a few of us to fight this sacred war of freedom? Similarly... give i shldnt... fight on i will. Even without you guys. I will be the next of you all. Even stronger. Its been such a long time since i was so sad... no one to share my thoughts, sadness, happiness, Vic! where r u now? Chris? Jason? Guo Rong?? ...

........In some attempts... its glorious to fail... especially the attempt of success... But i shall'nt......
Missing the days of '03 and '04.....

Jay Chou- Yi Lu Xiang Bei

2005-07-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

Yi Lu Xiang Bei - Jay Chou
--------------------------------

hou shi jing li de shi jie yue lai yue yuan de dao bie

ni zhuan shen xiang bei che lian hai shi hen mei

wo yong yan guang qu zui jing ting jian ni de lei

zai che chuang wai mian pai hui shi wo cuo shi de ji hui

ni zhan de fang wei gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei

jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui

*Chorus

wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie

ni shuo ni hao lei yi wu fa zai ai shang shui

feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui

xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui

wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie

fang xiang pan zhou wei hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui

wo jia sui chao yue que shuai bu diao jing jing gen shui de shang bei

xi shu can kui wo shang ni ji hui

ting zhi lang bei jiu rang cuo chun cui

Wo De Xin Sheng

2005-07-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, if life is really like a play, what sort of storyline would i include in it and what ending would i include in it. Would it be a happy one? or a sad one? or even a very exciting one. When a swallows flies during season change, it will be back the next season, when a willow withers, it will grow back. however, when times passes us by, it will not come back. Though i noe i cant rewrite my past script, i will be ready to write my forthcoming script about my life. I wont make it a happy one, nor a sad one, nor an exciting one. I would rather include all 3 to make my life a meaningful one. A meaningful one for people around me and to those whom i have came to love and appreciate. Love ya guys!

Recently, i heard this story from my boss, Mr Desmond. Which i would name, "The Architect and his House"

Long time ago, there was this world famous architect, renowned for his skills. One day, he felt sick of his work. Hence, he decided to retire. Upon knowning tt he is about to retire, his rich uncle told him to undertake 1 last project before he retire. The project is about making a wonderful house.
The architect reluctantly agreed. He immediately set off for his final project lacklustretly. He did not focus well on the material and the design. Even his worker were demoralised... 2 years later, the house was built. Upon completion, his uncle told him," very well nephew, in order to thank you for ur past contributions, this house would be given to you".

End.

Wad was the story trying to tell each of us?

We shldnt treat our lives like how the architect treat the house. Though tired and reluctant, one should always put in his best efforts in everything that he need to do. So, what kind of materials do you wan to built into the house. Similarly, wad kind of attitude and effort are u willing to put into ur life? a 50% one, or a 100% one. Cause u nv noe, the house might be urs.

Everyone who got to where he is now has to begin where he was.

Happiness is just like catching a butterfly,
The more you try to catch it,
The more it flies away,
But if you let it alone and do what you shld do,
It will sit softly on your shoulder.

Making decisions and sticking to it is part of growing up. Failure, to me is temporary, Defeat? Never!

Song of the day: Shao Nian (Guang Liang)

~Jaa... Kinda long, my longest ever, but, zhen de, zhen de, jiang chu le wo de xin sheng.

...

2005-07-11T03:52:00.000+08:00

Na shi wo men dou hui bu qu de cong qian. Well Well, its a topsy turvey week, met some1 new. some1 rather interesting. ha!but well, well... nvm. Been glad that lots of my frens were around me this few days, like charylene jie. Haiya, thanks alot ar. felt someting for tt gal. realli i did. But well... nvm...Glad tt my bro(chris) is safe.. for now. haha. No dee siaoing for u for a while. nononono, forever! Ha! NDO's coming again. Genting's coming, everyting's coming, but shes not. she not..shes not. Kinda miss her. miss her kinda. Well.. Well.. Well.

The secret of happinese is not in doing things u like, but liking the tings u do. and tts you for me.
~Jaa

Wang You Cao

2005-07-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

Getting more and more engross about positive songs recently... songs like Dang and Wang You Cao. For Wang You cao, i feel very at peace whenever i listen to it. Juz feel like im in a sanctuary, very relaxed. I feel tt song is talking bout a person's life and the events in life. Also, whenever i really go listen to the song's lyrics, tears seems like so heavy. Haiz, too many "guo cheng" liao. Though tired and stressed out sometimes, always rmb tt my parents are alot more times tired and stress compare to me. My li' pressure is nothin. Life is really like photography, u really need the Negatives to develop, in a person's life, if nothin bad or drastic happen to him/her, his life is as good as wasted. Recently felt tt someting was lacking in my life. SOmeting tt i cant seem to tink of. Or mayb i noe. but too lazy to execute. hmmm. wad could it be... hmmm. Mada Mada! anyways. Left 100BCs to Tio BRM. 2months... 2months... then me and my partner would be company's youngest BRM. Swee!

~Jaa and Mada!

Feels

2005-07-02T05:39:00.000+08:00

its like 5am plus in the morning. Not asleep yet. Been listening to a couple of songs recently. Songs like Wang You Cao- Zhou Hua Jian, Dang-Dong Li Huo Che, Moments-Ayumi. Ah... those songs brings backs those memories... Well, Charylene jie's is away from SG, arh... sianz 1/2, no 1 to chat wif me liao. Well hope tt everyting is fine for her, nothin bad happen to her. Felt tt my knowledge level is slowly leveling up. Gd ting. Felt kinda bored these days, so decide to set a small challenge to myself, 6GMs in 1 month. Prize for tt target= US$5000. Wooo. Genting Incentive is coming to an end. Hope more of my guys will tio. Lets earn some money now for Genting and lets haf some fun up in the hills! Lastly, hope tt she(1) will be ok, she(2) will be ok too. Seigaku! FIGHT-O, FIGHT-O!

~Jaa Jaa!

transistion period! begone!

2005-06-29T05:14:00.000+08:00

Its a good couple of days back. Been doing some soul-searching lately. Had a great birthday. Love you mum, dad and everyone else who were there with me on the 23rd. Had a pretty nice day. Big cake. Nv had one so big b4. Woah. Those pesky guys bought me leonard tie! Wth! My fav. 300 plus i tink? Thanks alot guys. Really appreciate it.
Finally out of my mind's transistion period. FInally got my direction back. All i can say is. Im back. and im back for good. Lots of enlightenment from my fellow mates, my partner, Edric, my small boss, Mr Ric, Bigger boss, Mr Jackie. U guys got me out. I owe u guys a big 1. Well, been rather lazy for the past days, down wif cough(serious), sudden fever. Well, tts not excuse. I felt the cure for all these for me is to get back my direction. 2 days back, she came back. Happy as i could be, but sad down in my heart. The feeling of closeness is not as b4. Though i wanted it to stay that way. haiz. Nvm. The best thing is life is tt u dun always get wad u wan. Rub away the sadness and tears buddy, the fight is juz starting, pick yourself up and dun let ur fellow mates down. Rushing off to bed. Dreaming about the battle next day, there could only be 1 victor, and tt is me, my partner and my guys. CHeers and begone, sadness.

~Jaa.

Believe.

2005-06-15T11:08:00.000+08:00

Life's been pretty messy, is like more of a rocket roller coaster. Some1's been trying to mess things up, trying to confuse minds. Well, I would say, "Go on ahead, if thats what you believe" If you want to believe someone, please, please, understand his background, his doings, his words and finally, please, dont juz listen to his side of story. Any guy who has basic intelligence would be smart enough to listen to both sides of the story. Well, i did, thats why im still here. The highest form of ignorance, is to reject or comment on something that you noe nothin of. Anyways, the those who believe in those 'who believe b4, criticise after, belive again and criticize again', enjoy and indulge in those believes, your life is yours, life is black or white, it is what colours you wan to put it in. Well, jus like the story of the 'bat', who looks either like a mouse or the bird. When he is with the animals, he would say everything bad about the birds, but when he is with the birds, he would say bad things bout the animals. So, u tell me? what kind of a person he is? A person with credibililty or just some1 who just wan to create trouble. Lastly, i wouldnt really care much bout those who think they are to clever. If this is the life you wan, you can enjoy your sadness and confusion. Ferk off and take care, you sweet nothiness of the past. P.u.r.e Loser.

~Jaa. Laffing at your dumbness.

Alrite!

2005-06-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

haha. Kicked his ass todae. hahahahha. Yea, wonderful wonderful. Played tennis at NP todae at around 5pm. Had some lousy strokes at 1st while watching the freshies play. Woah. Remind me when i was like them. Doin all the running, forehand strokes, haha, 1 word, Shagged. haha. Hmm, somewhr near nite time, me and adam starting playing doubles wif ivan & skye. Well, couldnt believe it, my service became better. haha Terrorize them! hahah. haha, to add on to the pain, delivered a un-savable cross court forehand. Cool. haha, Next up, a wonderful smash down the centre court. ahahhahaha. Pure sexiness. well, the game ended 3-1 in our favour. haha. Swee la! Arh... as for the rest of the nite, found myself eating, eating and eating. Ate a curry rice after tennis, then went to meet my outside frens then eat Mac again. haha, upon reaching home, mum told me to eat dumplings. haha, and now im eating sweets. haha.

Jaa~~

2005-06-10T01:15:00.000+08:00

Handsome me!

My Life

2005-06-10T01:09:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt that all your normal characteristics are slowly confusing you all. Well, i did. And it is still going on. Well, i think i know what is happening. It seems like my mind is telling me to upgrade my level of development as fast possible so as to be even more independant and to lessen my Shi Xiong's burden. Guess my level of absorbtion is not high enuff and it is making me more confuse. Nevermind, felt that the past few weeks have been the busiest days of my life. Its making my very very tired. Luckily, i have got my parents support. Aniways, jus recently got in touch with this phrase, "Well Done is better than Well Said." Going off soon for some relaxation.

Jaa~~

Mind Collapsing

2005-06-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

Recently, got this strange feeling that my mind is starting to slow down, all my usual quick thinkings suddenly seems so far away. Just felt that my brain juice seems to be gone. Cant react as swiftly as before. Seems like my confidence level is dropping drastically, along with my sense of(arh.. duno wad word to use...) hmm.. sense of.. "xiao chong ming" i guess. Juzt felt plain sucky these few days, Not sure without is lethargic-ness or simply my mind seems to doze of... or izt becos i used my brain power on the wrong aspect? Too many negative energy has been goin around me. Alvin is 1 of them. I hate to admit it. But i gotta to gif myelf some areas to frustrate about. Juz felt ferked up by the things he do. Y cant he just be more "real" and more " Just" instead of being so evil and fake. Well, people like him wont make it far as long as "humans" r concerned. Well, some say tt my heart is just to soft. well, i guess they r right to a certain extend. Jus felt kinda confused. Tink im goin to turn evil to achieve bigger things. Well, 1stly, i'll exterminate those who try to oppose my network. And tts him. ~ Im gone...

~Jaa

2005-05-26T14:01:00.001+08:00

Bunch of hunkies babies.

2005-05-26T14:01:00.000+08:00

As the name goes...

2005-05-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

Dan the man! haha, whif is striking tie!

2005-05-26T13:59:00.002+08:00

Da Man is back!

2005-05-26T13:59:00.001+08:00

Me and my real Li' Sis! haha

2005-05-26T13:59:00.000+08:00

Me and my Li' Sis!

2005-05-26T13:58:00.000+08:00

Again! Whats up there?

2005-05-26T13:57:00.000+08:00

Sanctuary Managers at Furama

Back.

2005-05-26T13:49:00.000+08:00

Arh.. Back after so so vry long.Been rather busy with some plannings these few days, not much time available to blog.Been slping quite late these few days, exhausted. Well, Felt a sense of emptiness in me somehow. Felt tt someting is blocking me. Well, if im not wrong, i tink i noe what or who is it liao. Well, tt person or ting is goin to be termintated by me. Well, well. Lets see..ah.. Kai yang got his car licsense. Wonderful! Now im goin to get mine. Haha. Real soon. Hope my Basic Theory pass. haha. Arh! Another piece of info. Liverpool juz won the Champions League this morning. WOnderful! Wonderful! They were down 3-0 to Milan in the 1st half. Well, this match tot me some tings.. in life, those who got in lead 1st not neccesary might be the final victors. Also, thru tt match, i indirectly understood the potential of belief and perservance despite losing. Now i finmally belief tt belief and perseverance can truely cre8 miracles! Cheer up everyone! We are back to finish some unfinished business!

Jaa~

2005-05-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

Thats Mr Desmond & Nigel!

2005-05-17T01:54:00.001+08:00

More pre-realease fotos!

2005-05-17T01:54:00.000+08:00

Pre-Realeased fotos at Changi Airport...

Full of activities!

2005-05-17T01:39:00.000+08:00

Well well, long time no blog. Lets c wad shall i start. Full of activities for the pass few days. Ok, last friday, went Dbl O wif my group of frens and sp. Well, 1st time go out wif her since like how many yrs ago. Lolz. The place was quite crowded. Full of smoke and alcohol smell. Being a non-drinker, kinda afraid tt i would get drunk. Well, nevertheless, tried some "turkeylla" shots. Actually 1 only... but sp was too afriad to drink. So help her dirnk lo. After tt, head became quite heavy. Well, must be the drinks and over exhaustion. Went home wif her about 9plus at nite. Send her home b4 proceeding home,(c! im such a sweetie) haha. When i reached home, my headache got worse. Very very very pain. Felt like dying. Serious. im serious. Woke up at around 11am. Wore my flowery white shirt. Woah. COolz. Specially for our International president's Lesson at 2pm at Furama Hotel. Brought my parents along. Spent a ver eventful and enriching day there.! Cheers! Went back company for a meeting b4 goin home at around 3am. Awwww. Late nites again. Nvm. Its beneficial for me. Spend my sunday partially in company and ast my Grandfather's bday dinner at pasir ris. Damn! Suppose to be there by 7pm but i reached there bout 8pm. Most of the food gone.... Aww shyt.! Nvm. Felt real happy to see my relatives around. Gre8! Went back to company at around 9.30pm. Had a chat wif my Shi Xiong in company and some rubbish chat wif sp. normal la. Got used to it. Went home around 3am also. Well well... Interesting lifestyle for me. Played Soccer on Monday(ytd) wif my old sch mates, missd them and went off to some other place to do some stuffs. Chat wif some of my guys on net and fone juz nw. Well, seems like everytings looking gd. Well, make a move 1st. Too tired...

Jaa~~

tired

2005-05-13T11:40:00.000+08:00

Reached home at around 7.30am from office. Power. Meeting until tt time, woke up at this time, Power. Slpt at around 8am, woke at at 11.30am. Swee. Going out soon. Lolz. Goin to part tonite. Lolz. Enuff said' Goin to earn big bucks liao.
Jaa~~

Wonderful!

2005-05-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

Da jie hao! Fei Chang hao!, Hao bu Hao! Hao! Hao ge pi ar! Extremly tiring day todae, came home from changi airport at around 5-6AM! Waited for my bosses to alight from the plane after a very historical trip from china. Hmm. kinda confused now but after last nite grouping, finally i found light to carry on fighting liao. China! China! Fell to slp upon reaching home. Woke up at around 1pm. Damn Shagged. Woke up to discuss some stuff wif my parents, kinda heated up. Lolz, went out around 5pm to company, upon reaching company, went to prepare for tonite's QnA session. Kinda fun. ENjoyable evening. Now waiting for Mr Ric to discuss some stuffs. Woah, damn tired, tired, tml still need to go some pub tingy. Lolz, 2nd time only.

~Jaa

Samurai X- Its Gonna Rain

2005-05-11T12:40:00.000+08:00

Its Gonna Rain
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Footsteps are lightly taken, chao chao

But hurrying anyway, chao chao

The thunder like a lion's roar

Prompts a dispersion.

What's going on?

That's right...the rain's coming

I really hate the rain, chao chao

I wanted to stay here a little longer, chao chao

In the instant when the pleasant sensation was changed,

When the lion made me hurry

It was obvious, No! Annoying.

It's gonna rain!

Has the rain erased his alibi?

Did he already forget?

Is this all the two of us will become?

Let's make all of this the rain's fault.

As for calls from him, Nothing Nothing

And lessons from the rain too, Nothing Nothing

If my mind would change

Like the weather in England

That would be a relief...but it's the opposite.

It's gonna rain!

The rain has made my fever return.

But he also suddenly remembered me.

The two of us were guided to here now.

It's all the rain's fault, no, thanks to it.

The rain calls people and makes them disappear--

A magician stronger than anyone.

The two of us had merely been fooling each other;

And didn't everything start in the rain.

It's gonna rain!

2005-05-11T00:51:00.000+08:00

awww.. hows my photography skills? Isnt she lovely? my gf!

2005-05-11T00:50:00.001+08:00

Nigel boy and his guys!

2005-05-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

The Last Samurai~

Arh...

2005-05-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hoi~ Hoi~ Been out of the blogging world for the past few days, just simply felt too tired to blog. Todae is no exception. However, under the special request of chiwawa(whose tt?). I'll jus tire myself la. haha. As i've said earlier, its been an tiring past week. Been doin lotsa stuffs, goin to changi, waking up early, slping late, and even met an old fren's younger bro and his dad! Check tt out man! Lolz. Oh, not to mention tt our whole group went to Mr Christian's KTV chalet and arena country club to have fun. The day began early 2 days ago(9/5), woke up at around 10plus. Washed up, packed up my tennis bag and off i go. Well, played some rubbish tennis todae. though the strokes are not too bad. KM came along and more rubbish tenis between the 3 us happened, ended at around 2plus, went to booked in to the chalet. Went into the room and we 3 started to haf fun. 15mins later, a surpprise call from china by boss, woah, blurr-ded. Well, played some 3-sided mahjong, won some mo-ney. and i really mooney,1st time ok! As the time pass, my eyes became more slpy. juz felt like slping. Well, time past real fast as more pple came. Say like around 20 pplus in the end. It was simply great fun at there, sang many songs,did many dumb stuffs, well, well, thats whats bonding's for wad. Time skipped past us every every min. Some guys began to left, at the end of the next morning, i fell aslpt at 5plus am. Well, it has been an tiring wk and day for me, felt overly exhausted. Well, lemme juz recharged for 1 day and i'll be back. Target for this month: BDM. Im goin all out for it. Pride and honour is at stake. Well, off to slp liao. Very very very tired liao...

Jaa~~

2005-05-03T01:37:00.000+08:00

Closed up view. Well well, whats next...

2005-05-03T01:36:00.000+08:00

$130+ tie... Awww... Pure sexiness!

Spend!Spend!Spend!

2005-05-03T01:33:00.000+08:00

Wtf, just realised that i spend a few hundred in a 1 day on 2 items. Kaoz. 1stly, went to my tailor there to tailor-made a pink-white-checkererd shirt which costs $170 bucks! Oh my! 1st time tailor made such an expensive shirt. haha. Too addicted into making tailor made shirts. Normally, a shirt cost from $50-$55. Coolz. Next went to suntec wif Edric, Alvin and Nigel to The Executive(Some high class tie shop), went in to browse around. Well, initially jus wanted to browse ONLY. However, Edric showed me 1 red flower tie. Awww, one look and i juz simply fell in love wif it. Took the tie and bought it without tinking much(bad habit), guess wad, it cost $130+. Ha! Wonderful la, Alwaysd wanted to get flowery ties, damn cool. Recently freaking into pink and red shirt designs. haha. Kinda gay but its damn modern lo. Another wonderful thing tt happen. Nigel has finally becomed a BAM. COngrats. More news!!! Tejay and kaiyang are coming up few more BCs left to tio. Wonderful wonderful. haha. New shirts, new ties, and new managers! haha, Eventful day for everyone! Well well....Oya sumi!

Jaa~~

life's a bitch

2005-04-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

Finally understood what the word 'Greed' is all about. Well, many a times, someone whom u tink u could trust upon is somemore close to u, however, when the money issue comes in. Everyting crumbles. Since u wan it, juz take it. Never, and mean never condemn about pple when U urself are doin his actions personally. So, uve been waiting eh. Waiting to strike, nvm. Lets c who will laff all the way to the bank. Lets c who will be respected and who will be mocked. Try harder pls. U're nothin but a wolf in a sheep's clothing. A piece of ugly wooden plank whom juz use fake paint to cover urself, making everyone tink ure good. Well, im telling you, your're nothin, without for us, you nothin but a normal person, no regconitions, no nothin. So, my advise for u is to get a new personality as well as a new style, cos ur goin down if u dun change.

P.S: Just my personal feelings about a guy who spoils everyting in my circle of frens' life.